When I was young I thought I would grow up, get married, have kids and be a stay at home mom. I guess this is because that is what my mom did. My parents were married for life. I never imagined that I would not be married to one person for life.
As I went over free bible study lessons today, I thought about the fact that I’d been married once and divorced once already. I made a huge mistake getting remarried to a man who claimed to be a Christian, but I should have known better. He did not live like a Christian except when he went to church, on the rare Sunday occasion.
He was an alcoholic, he smoked, and worst of all he lied to me. He took any and every opportunity to get with other women. He humiliated me, and worst of all he knew the truth and what the bible says, and he spit in God’s face. I struggled a lot this year when we ended our marriage and he left.
I realized that I prayed at the beginning of the year that he would finally be honest and stop pretending to be a Christian. God answered this prayer. I had hoped that he would change, but he just left and he is given over to Satan now.
When I went over teen bible lessons for Wednesday night, I realized that I am much closer to God now. My hope is in the Lord and the cry of my heart is to bring Him praise. He will take care of us and one day he will heal my broken heart. I made so many mistakes and yet he loves me still. He came to my rescue and he saved me. This curse of sin is just so hard to deal with sometimes. I cannot wait until it is over. I cannot wait to be in heaven with God and to have a perfect sinless body.
